A new beginning

Okay, so I haven't posted anything since March. However, I am feeling very optimistic these days. I am starting a new school year, with a new (very smart and capable) teaching partner. I am getting a new classroom. This is my fifth year teaching, so I have to know what I'm doing this year, right?

AND I am having a baby. It still freaks me out a little bit to say out loud that I am pregnant. I feel like I did when I started introducing F to people as "my husband". It makes me giggle and I feel a little bit like a fake.

I turn 30 today, and I am feeling like all things are possible. I woke up feeling slightly more "adult" and with a little more control over my circumstances. I have no idea what this means, but I am just feeling a little more prepared to face the world today with that big 3-0 at my back.

Maybe this will be the year when I believe in myself. Maybe this will be the year when I put more faith in other people. Maybe this will be the year when I get my finances under control. Maybe this will be the year when I find God again. Maybe this will be the year when we finish our house. Maybe this will be the year when I am the friend I always intend to be. Maybe this will be the year when I feel confident in my ablilities. Maybe this will be the year when I convince my mother-in-law once and for all! Maybe this will be the year when I will be the best wife ever (even during the school year). Maybe this will be the year when I keep my house clean and the laundry under control. Maybe this will be the year when I am all things to all people and I feel satisifed that I have finally done enough.
And...maybe it won't.
There's always 31. ;)